Reactions

We've gotten a lot of questions about how we and others have reacted to the news. My immediate reaction was shaking, crying, denial. Jonathan never missed a beat. As soon as he saw two, he was by my side beaming. He was stoked even before we found out they were boys but he was over the moon once the tech told him he was going to have two sons. He's been my rock so far- trusting that God wasn't shocked like we were and that this is going to be the ride of our lives.

I laid on that table and my mind was racing. My thoughts were something like this

holy cow twins i'm going to have twins i have two babies in my belly i'm going to have four kids i'm going to have four kids under four i'm going to have three kids under two how am i going to go to target we have to get another car seat thank goodness we have that van i'll have to get up at 5am to go jogging before they all wake up we're going to have four in high school at the same time oh we're going to have four in college at the same time what if i go into labor early what if they are preemies what if i have to go on bedrest who is going to clean my house well i don't clean it now anyways it may be cleaner if i have to go on bedrest kiran is going to love this sienna is prob going to need therapy when she is older....

you get the picture.

After my ultrasound, we got to go tell everyone our news! For the record, about a month prior, I was talking to Brenna on the phone one evening and I was just exhausted. She told me that she thought I was pregnant with twins and that they were boys. And that if she was right, I had to call her first. I walked out of the office and called her while I was waiting for J to get the car. All I could get out was "I'm calling you first!" and then she started screaming and I burst into tears.

We called our family first. Every conversation was basically something like this
Family Member: "So what is it???"
Jonathan: "Its a boy!..."
FM: "Woohoo! Yea! Congrats! That's awesome!"
J: "And another boy!"
FM in a really low voice: "What?"

My dad wasn't speechless per se but he just said a bunch of words and it didn't make any sort of sense. My brother told me that this made our family even weirder. Jordan suggested Bo and Luke for names.

My mom was keeping the girls for us during the ultrasound. When we got home the girls both came running and Kiran was asking, "Am I going to have a brother or a sister?" I got down on my knees and said, "Well Kiran you are going to have a brother! In fact you are going to have two brothers!" My mom was standing behind the girls and she just looked at me like what are these words that are coming out of your mouth??? Kiran was by far the most nonchalant. Since Brenna had her twins, Kiran has had twins in her belly so it was just normal for me to have twins in my belly. She has totally taken it in stride even suggesting that her brothers could sleep in Sienna's crib when they came. The next day Kiran would walk around, put her hand on one side of her belly and say "This is Baby A" and then put her hand on the other side of her belly and say "This is Baby B." She will pick up the ultrasound pictures and say," But Mommy I don't know which one of my brothers this is!"

Its been a very exciting couple of days. We appreciate all the congrats and prayers and comments. I'm starting to come out of the fog. The fog was so thick that on Tues evening my youngest daughter ate three cupcakes for dinner. I got a twin book and I got some advice and I'm starting to make lists. I just keep reminding myself to breathe.