I Lust and I Think

I have been lusting and thinking lately.

I lust after a digital SLR.
And an ipod touch. or an iphone.
a wireless printer
a lighter vacuum (the real question is will it make me want to vacuum more often???)
a new laptop (oh! check! got it!)

I struggle wanting these things. I struggle knowing if I should spend my money on these things. I mean I don't think its a sin to have an iphone (for instance) but its hard for me to justify the extra $25 a month on that when $25 a month is 78% of what you need per month to sponsor a Compassion child. According to Compassion's website, $32 a month provides food, clean water, medical care, education opportunities, life-skills and an opportunity to hear about Jesus Christ and develop a life-long relationship with God.

So... internet access on my cell phone/ipod/planner or all those opportunities for a child in a third world country?

I really really struggle with these things. Constantly. Ever since we moved back from overseas, I hesitate before buying anything and ask myself these questions such as Is it necessary? Is it wise? Is there a better way that this money could be spent? [Put down the Reese's Cup, Kelley] I don't think asking such questions is wrong but it can be rather paralyzing.

I guess I haven't figured out how to reconcile the parts of the world that I have seen with the affluence we live in here in America. I wonder if I'll ever be able to reconcile these warring desires this side of heaven. I want these things that make life more enjoyable, more fun, more efficient but I want to be sure I'm honoring God with the money He's entrusted to me.